Lily
I need to let you know that I’m still so very confused about everything. I’m scared of our relationship and what it might become. I really like hanging out with you but I’m afraid I’ll fall for you again. And I want to regularly hang out and chat with you, just like old times, but it’s scary when I think about it. So I want to know your opinion. What do you think about ‘us’ hanging out? And don’t give me that superficial bullshit about yeah we can still be friends that hang out, but then we never do. I want your honest opinion. You’re always going to be my best friend, regardless of what happens. So tell me, do you think we can maintain our friendship? Because right now I feel as we’re not close anymore…
And I’m really sorry if I’m mean to you, but seriously, my actions are just hiding the fact that I’m still afraid of our friendship. My evilness is trying to highlight that I’m slowly getting over you…. I can’t show you any kindness right now (mentioned in other blog), because my vulnerabilities would mean I’ll fall for you again… Sighs,.., I don’t want to be mean to you… but… I can’t help it…
